May 2, 2013

So the house I grew up in was/is really fucking old. Like, built in 1880 old. Because of this, the basement was unfinished and had totally concrete walls and floors, and it constantly smelled musty. There was this one area toward the back of it, but actually at the front of the house if you oriented yourself correctly, that was my dad’s work area. It had all sorts of neat stuff in it, stuff from when my Great Uncle Tony used to live there, but really, most of it was power tools.

I would sometimes go down there to explore. But it always made me uneasy. There was this one little alcove - for lack of a better term, off to the right side, that always remained a mystery to me. It was always difficult to find the light switch for my dad’s work area, but this alcove, it had no light switch. Whenever I got near the doorway of it I would become nervous. My imagination would race with all sorts of creatures that could be hiding in there. They featured in my nightmares quite often in the 13 years that I lived there. The hallway seemed to stretch forever into a winding labyrinth, twisting into itself in impossible ways. I don’t think I ever stepped foot in there.

At work I’ve had to traverse the narrow stairs (my feet barely fit on the steps) into the basement twice, and it has the same concrete and musty smell that I haven’t dealt with for a decade. There’s a door just off to the left of the stairway. It is the same as the little alcove.

May 2, 2013

my problem for the past couple nights:

-want to talk to Rook, but he’s a busy little bee

-start to fall asleep in front of computer around 1am

-get into bed and hope i can hear him text me

-either don’t receive any or dead asleep by the time 2am rolls around

April 30, 2013

I really wish my mom was still awake so I could ask her if my hands got itchy when I reacted to cephalosporin since they’re feeling a little itchy now on amoxicillin, although that could just be me making shit up now. 

I really don’t want to be that tiny percent that is allergic to both, and I used to be able to take it but that means shit.

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April 28, 2013

Alright guys so apparently I still felt nothing when he kissed me, even though I’m not on my period.

Like, I was assuming there would be some sort of, I don’t know, reaction. It just feels odd. Does fiction lie, or is this something that I should be worried about.

April 7, 2013
my hair is getting into that weird curly phase when it dries

my hair is getting into that weird curly phase when it dries

April 5, 2013
my hair is finally long enough to pull back into a folded pony-tail

my hair is finally long enough to pull back into a folded pony-tail

April 4, 2013

Watching cartoons on my couch is considered a date, right?

March 31, 2013

listening to the censored version of Maroon 5 - Pay Phone at work hurts my head because i sing along under my breath and they change “fucking” to “flipping” and “full of shit” to “full of it”

March 24, 2013

While I was growing up my aunt had a Quaker Parrot named Badger. He was pretty mean and noisy. He bit me quite a few times, bruising me and drawing blood. I’ve had a fear of these birds because of this for quite some time.

Badger flew out of an open door a few years ago.

And my aunt got a new Quaker Parrot for Christmas last year. She brought him up for the week and…

His name is Ollie and he’s actually a huge sweetie.

March 24, 2013

okay so i think i might be walking funny while at work since this is the second time i’ve been hurting in this leg

it feels like i pulled my hamstring or something, the pain is from about mid-thigh to mid-calf on the back of my leg and it hurts to bend and extend a certain way while walking or putting weight on it

at the same time, the side of my second toe feels like there’s a piece of fishing line from the base of my toe being pulled to the tip with the line pressing against the side firmly

right leg, why must you hate me so

March 23, 2013

Bored, Rook’s busy doing shenanigans, work at 9 in the am, I guess it’s sleep time

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March 21, 2013

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March 20, 2013

I think the thing that is giving me the most difficulty right now is wrapping my head around the fact that someone finds me attractive enough to want to be with me and is willing to wait for me to get my shit together to make the first moves.

March 17, 2013

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March 15, 2013

Is there a mod where the only thing that comes out of Ellis’ mouth is the noise he makes when he shoots up adrenaline?

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